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What if when I closed my eyes, Never did I wake? What if when I cut my sighs, No more air did I intake? What if when I stopped my heart, No more did I hear its drone? What if when I stopped this war, I could finally be alone?

I'm not invisible Don't look through me I'm not like the others Just you wait and see I'm not a different version of one and the same I have my own story, my own beliefs, my own name I want your attention, why can't you see? All I want is you to be with me Don't stare past me Don't look at the rest I'm following my heart While you search for the best I know it's not your fault I know I'm asking too much I've just been hurt too many times Had my heart ripped out and such It's a personal problem I've come to realize Always wanting to catch your eyes I'll get over it eventually Don't worry about poor little me I know I'm never on your mind Even

Martyr! Martyr! Hold the fire When the warm blood boils and hearts desire Savior! Savior! Please don't suffer Redeem the lost and be their buffer Hero! Hero! Cut the zeros Steer the ship through violent sea throws Victim! Victim! Scale the rim Hold your breath as the light goes dim Quiet! Quiet! Do not fight it Hold the stable and starve the diet Hush! Hush! Whispers the brush As the sun hides again and the moon turns lush Silent! Silent! Remain independent Keep your cool and become a remnant Martyr! Martyr! Douse the fire As the blood freezes over and the heart finally tires

Something doesn't feel right Something's not okay Inside I'm wound way too tight Inside I start to break Maybe if I just stopped being, it would be alright Maybe if I stopped this horrid feeling, I wouldn't feel its bite Something clicked within my head Something dried after it bled Inside I feel my banging pulse Inside I feel it start to dull Maybe if I just stopped breathing, I'd have peace at last Maybe if I stopped wanting meaning, my memory will pass Something yearns within my frame Something wants to erase my name Inside I fight a losing battle Inside my bones ache and rattle Maybe if I stopped this life, I'd finally be alone Maybe if I

Listen to me Where am I? It's my Christian duty To give love a try How can I help you When I can't help myself? Burning my own hell true And rotting in my health The words they rumble And tumble and fumble around Hissing and pissing and hitting the ground I can't get this feeling out Help me get this feeling out It burns and maims my very core Knocking and scratching and kicking my door It won't go away Make it go away What can I do When I honestly try to pray? And don't see an answer giving me cause When I don't see a sign that will give me pause Don't tell me I'm okay To live another day I'm done, I quit Goodnight, the end I'm through follo

We're gonna go eventually We'll see it all experimentally Wrapped in thoughts and ideas, Dancing beneath astronauts and chandeliers Catch the fireflies in jars luminescent Cloaked in shadows with a leering essence Crying silently the tears and frustrations, Mapping the world with basic navigations Holding glass anxiously Honoring promises graciously Hating the mighty for their elegant fists, Screaming loudly you did not call for this Rising above it all miraculously Rubbing your heart raw immaculately Release the emotions pent up inside, Enslave the people and quick fast rewind! We dream our wishes creatively While society crawls along vegeta